I sure wish i had something witty or deep to share for all one of my readers.

I don't. However, a personal conviction i have had to NOT indulge myself in a

ridiculous pity party has reiterated itself to me. what is it, you ask? Ok, twist my arm.

Here goes nothing; four years ago I had to hVE hysterectomy due to severe

endometriosis. BLAH. TRIPLE BLAH, as I was raised in a amazing family and have

my original birth parents, which is quite unusual these days! I digress; for as long as I can

remember 5 have wanted to be a mom. I wanted to have that family like the one I was

raised in from birth to my {cough cough } 37 yrs of age. A close Italian/Irish family

that I grew up in.

We weren't rich by any means; that simply didnt matter. We had an over abundance

of love and joy. Our house was the halfway house for my 3 bothers and I friends.

The holidays were open door policies as were Birthdays and any time friends wanted

to hang. Needless to say, this is the family of my own I desired since I was 10 yrs.

I badly wanted to make my house a safe haven for troubled friends of my children.

I wanted 2-3 boys. I had it all planned out, names included.... though I suppose, as

they say, "the best laid plans...."

I have repressed all these feelings for the last 4 years because, being raised

with 43 bothers you learn to not be a baby. However, this year on mothers day something

happened.... a breakdown.... yes, ours truly lost it! I wont fill you in on the pathetic details,

or the way i tried to deal with the horrid pain. I know people mean well when they say

" you can always adopt...." ya, not so much. at this point we have just enough money to

to survive. And we are so behind on bills as I have been out of work for the last 9 mos

, just beginning a new job 1 and a half weeks ago. Not to mention I am 37 and a half

yrs old and have looked into those requirements, they dont let you adopt once you

turn 40! UGH!!!!! Blah blah blah ; poor pity party me!!!! WHATEVER!!!

I have SO much to be thankful for! I have an AMAZING family; couldn't

survive w/out them! Not to mention my INCREDIBLE, TOLERANT husband and my fabulous

understanding in-laws {whom i absolutely ADORE!!!!} my long winded point is I know

that I have absolutely NO reason or justification to have a pity party for myself!!!

So this is me saying no more letting me get this down and depressed. Be thankful for all

the support I have and repress the rest for another 4 or 5 years! Hey, it worked GREAT

for the past 4!!! I have all men in my life so they dont wanna hear this wussy B.S.!

There are soooo many people w/REAL problems; my best friend of 20 years topping the list

as she has a terminal disease known as Wegners Granulomatosis. She is on oral steroids.

not to mention she has 3 most beautiful children ages 5, 12 ad 17. AND her husband had been

having an affair on her for the last 4 yrs and they FINALLY separated 1 yr ago with the

divorce pending....{ it's complicated....} . Sheeewww, ok, I am furious about all these issues so I

will wrap it up.

It's a Mad World. No more pity party time for me, I PROMISE!!!! { At least not for

another 4 years!!!} Repression is the answer, I don't care what anyone else says!

So thats that! Hope all for of you enjoyed my totally upbeat post... hahaha; sarcasm

much?! Hope you are all doing well.... hug someone you love { and give 'em an x-tra

hug from the CRAZY BLOG LADY!!!!

Until Niagra Falls

Yours Sincerely and Truly

Just me; Superchance OUT!

Graduation Day......

Just back from my neice, Brookelynn's, kindergarten graduation. Let me

tell you, St Thomas does NOT mess around. In march 40 beautiful children in

white cap and gowns in perfect step, hands folded angelically in front them.

They sang a collection of little songs and the one that really got me was

when they were all holding American flags and singing about America. And

at the end, a resounding God Bless America...... these kids are being taught

right! And my neice, well, there are no words! I was bawling like a baby

wathing her walk up and get that kindergarten diploma. Like I had given

birth to her myself. It may sound mundane to you, but it was awesome.....

really, really awesome!

Monseignor Ron gave a little talk to the kids. He told them to raise their

hands if they knew what an elephant was. Then he referenced how HUGE

said elephants are. Said you could never eat an elephant all at once. That

you have to take small bites ; and with each the futher you get. Letting them

know that this is their first stepping stone. That thats what you do in life...

aprroach things one thing at a time and you will get there. Hmmmmm

I think I benefitted as much from that ceremony as those beautiful, hopeful

shiny happy children!!!

I feel old and sentimental, dammit! But hey, what am I gonna do? o ya,

TAKE SMALL BITES and remember to breathe in and out.....

I wish you a VERY SHINY HAPPY DAY!!! Hug someone you love......

You Mean the Memory is STILL working...

So... the memory didnt fail me today.... I didn't realize how much I missed work until I had been out of it for 9 months! Cool docs, busy smack down today which I LOVE: not even time to eat all day. Although I don't usually toot my own horn (...cough cough ;-) ) I was happy to see that I got all my blood draws on the first stick and remembered things as I went. Which is what my darling husband kept reminding me of the last two days , as I had been so nervous that I would suddenly be struck with early on set Alzheimers...... God and my guardian angels were CERTAINLY watching over me! I guess with all the praying my mom and the friars and everyone have been doing He blessesd me.... even though I most certainly dont deserve it!

So, very releved that it went so well and nice to have some work again. Right now I am just contracting my services with them as they are waiting for word from corporate for a new position.

So FINALLY an exceptionally GREAT day with a great group of techs and docs. and the animals, of course!!!!! Man I LOVE being a vet tech.... and the moneys better than I was making at my previous place of employment so thats always FABULOUS!!!!

Exhausted from a full day at work after sitting on my BIG BUTT for 9 months... maybe I will work some of that off by staying busy at work!! Being out of work re-taught me how to be thankful for employment ( especially in these hard economic times) and how to approach everything with a happy heart.... even the parvo pup that had projectile, vile, stinky and watery bloody diarrhea all over two cages. Yep, I actually cleaned it all up while singing along to Elvis and Blue Suede Shoes. Now thats when you KNOW you were desperate for work.

Anyway, ciao for now

more later..... hug someone you love,

M.C. OUT!

Wow.... it's been a LOoooong while since Ive posted a word. I've been out of work for the last 9 months and now, at 10:00 today, I start relief work as a vet tech for a vet clinic literally 2 blocks away from my house. Everything about it seems really cool.... just having a job will be really cool. Bu I am irrationally nervous about it because I have been hands off as a vet tech for so long and if you dont use it lose it.

Im hoping that the catheter placements and surgery assisting and dentals come back VERY quickly. Well... what can I do... just go do my best! My husband is amazing and encouraging, which I am so thankful for. And hes usually right so thats helpful.

Anyway, thats the story. More later.....